Older and wiser?...

Wow! It's really been a long while since I've been on here, and added to this. I'm now 24, nearly a quarter of a century old. I'm not sure why but this birthday has hit me harder than many. Not because I feel ancient with one foot in the grave. Not at all. I'm actually very excited to be where I am. This past month I have been noticing more of what is important to me and what is dispensable. It's actually made me a happier person.

This past week I spent virtually every day, Sunday-Sunday with one particular person. I have always looked to this person for wisdom and advice in some of my lowest times. I knew this person was someone special to me but I don't think I truly appreciated it until this week. He is a person that I have this amazing connection with. We are able to have some wonderfully deep conversations or the most goofy. I think one of the best things is he treats me as a complete person with something to give to the world. I'm not this young person that knows nothing. To him what I think and say matters. Plus he's an absolute gentleman! No door am I to touch. No heavy bag am I to carry. It's so refreshing, from the day to day interactions with people. Chivalry is dead! I don't care who thinks I'm wrong or who thinks that a strong woman has to do everything for themself. No, sometimes it's nice to be cared for as a woman. I don't think it makes me a weaker woman, actually quite the opposite.

I've also found that my best friend has changed a lot. I spent some time with her while I was home and found that she has blossomed over the year. She was a beautiful person before, but interestingly enough becoming a mother has made her listen more and I guess like me really seek out the important things in life. I wrote here before that I was afraid of losing her and while we don't get hardly any time to spend with her I strangely enough feel closer to her. I was sad that our little time together had to end, but we are still connected through technology but also weirdly enough spiritually.

I am hoping to take this new found wisdom, appreciation and happiness with me to Connecticut. I want this new perspective to seep into my music and push me towards a wonderful career. I'm not sure what the path will be just yet, but I feel that it will be very worthwhile and fulfilling.

On to a new chapter!