The evils of technology

When did I become so shy about sharing my deep feelings with people that nobody truly knows how I feel about an important subject? I just had a great conversation with a good friend and it began quite innocently, speaking the usual pleasentries and soon warped into a innocent game of twenty questions. I didn't expect it to lead to anything of deep conversation but it soon lead there requiring me to give up some answers that more than likely nobody had heard from me. Of course I was reserved in the beginning but, as we kept going I got more and more open. I soon realized how much better I felt that I had said what I had said. Then what I had said lead to more and more discussion and the two of us learning so much about one another that we previously hadn't known. Now looking back on it I thoroughly enjoyed it. What made me so open when that is not really something I do? Well partly the lateness of the hour didn't keep me from slipping but of course it was the means by which the conversation itself was happening. Yes that's right it was over the Internet. Words typed, sent out into space presumibly received by the other individual, in this case a friend, read and then responded to. What is it about this medium that allows me to speak so freely? It seems to act as my own alchohol, getting me drunk so I may speak my mind. Yet it's more than that. The person on the other end isn't able to read my facial expressions, sound of my voice and other body language so they don't get the full tone of he message I'm sending plus I can think about what I'm going to say for a much longer time than I would if I was face to face with the same person. I know that I'm a very careful person and the idea of having a face to face conversation and having to think quickly and answer quickly may scare me into muteness. Whatever it is, it's not fate to me or the other individual. This is something I should work on as a person, especially if I intend to sustain a romantic relationship. Those kinds of relationships should not prosper on fiber cables!