Well another Christmas is here. It's hard to believe. I really am starting to feel old because the happiness and kid like feelings I used to have for Christmas are almost gone. Sure I get excited, but not nearly as much. Instead of looking forward to the new toy I'm getting, I look forward to being with people that really mean something to me and performing for people, as I did all weekend.
Anyway, I'd like to talk about last night. I ended up eating dinner at a very good friend of mine. He's a wonderful person and almost like a father to me. The dinner was me, my mom, him and his wife. We spent about 5 or 6 hours eating, drinking and talking. We talked the gamut in those hours. I ended up learning alot about him, and felt myself feeling closer to him than ever. That father feeling became stronger. It truly was a wonderful time!
This morning as I was beginning to regain conciousness from sleeping I was dreaming some very vivid dreams. One thing I remember from it was being in his arms. It was so comforting. The power of his touch, of his arms around me was amazing...and it was a dream. It was as if all my fears, depression, problems had been taken away. So tonight, I gave him a long hug after the service and it was, for some reason, a magical hug. I don't know if it was just me, or what, but I know now something better than ever. I love him. I fell in love with him last night. This man is a wonderful man and I'm so lucky to have him in my life.
Besides learning how much I love him, I also learned something about me. I think that if he was my age, and single I would be very interested. I realized how I fall in love, because that's what I did last night. And the big thing, that I know what I'm looking for. Only problem, I haven't met a guy like that, who is my age. Might be a problem! Ha! Anyway, I'm so glad I had that wonderful evening and that I realized how much I love him as a person, father figure and friend.
Merry Christmas.
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